Awake in the night with burning stomach
and muscle cramps; I know this to be typical if only occasional effect of my
cancer treatments. I am also having spiritual cramps. I am able to pray while I
am up in the night. But my mind will not move on from people I have prayed for
whose lives are crashing in sin or its consequences. Some of them were people for
whom I had seen great answers to prayer. I understand Paul’s lamentation in 2
Corinthians chapter 11.
“And, apart from other things,
there is the daily pressure on me of my anxiety for
all the churches.
Who is weak, and
I am not weak?
Who is made to fall, and I am not indignant?”
I do not enjoy this trial. And I am
tempted to give up on such prayers. But I know the Heavenly Physician is
subjecting me to spiritual treatments. I am the silver chalice being purified
in this fiery blast furnace. And by God’s grace some of these for whom I pray
will yet drink the life changing elixir from God’s vessel that is being formed.